Ever since January, my life has been a whirlwind of crazy. I transferred to a four-year university, I changed my major for good, and my awesome boss got transferred to another store and was replaced with one who isn’t my biggest fan.
During all of the extra shifts I’ve had to pull at work, and the heavier course-load that comes with taking all 300 level classes, I found myself getting stressed. Unfortunately, unlike a normal person, I deal with stress by pretending it isn’t there, which obviously causes it to pile on. Not to mention this leaves me flustered and forgetful, which has hurt my grades, especially to my abnormal child psych class, which I am on the verge of failing.
I’ve hurt relationships with some very dear friends because of my lack of responsibility and I have no one to blame but myself. Hell, I wouldn’t even forgive me with the shit I put them through. I’ve been an epic bitch.
Worst part of this all is this constant feeling of drowning that I’ve had for the past few months that hasn’t subsided in the slightest. Not to mention I can’t sleep and I’m losing weight because I’m not eating as much as I should.
Everyday I feel like crying because I have screwed up really bad these past few months. I just wish I could do them over.